The thing with depression is that it feels very alone. There aren't many people who can say the right thing to make anything "better", because that person doesn't know how I feel. But recently Jesus has been slowly and lovingly showing me just how much He does.Read More
You're blessed when you feel you've lost what is most dear to you. Only then can you be embraced by the One most dear to you. -Matthew 5:3-4, MSG
Can I be honest with you tonight wives? If you've noticed a trend in my posting, it usually doesn't happen until late at night. I had grand plans this morning to schedule my thoughts out for the week since I had the day off of school. But instead, I rose early to teach a sunrise yoga class, went back to bed and didn't mean to sleep until 9:30, worked on a tedious project all day, ran errands, did a pile of dishes, cooked dinner, and made time for my mat. If I'm being honest, I haven't showered today, put on a bra (and yes, I left the house without it), and I'm not even sure I remembered to brush my teeth.
I feel as if I am at the end of my rope. Tomorrow is the year anniversary of my grandmother's death, a day I do not want to celebrate, and like Laura yesterday, I feel my emotions all over the place. Between co-hosting this journey, leading a Love and Respect marriage Bible study, and embarking on my Holy Yoga training last week, and simply feeling hunkered down with an immense load of stress, I have felt nothing shy of spiritual warfare raging in my life.
I've watched my husband this past week seemingly float through his days. To be honest, the enemy is tearing at my heart to harbor bitterness towards him, and messing with my mind making me believe the lie that I'm carrying it all. When in fact, my dear husband has been shouldering my burden all week.
You see, as I sit here with tears streaming down my face realizing how magnificent this thing called marriage is, I am reminded of how like Christ to the church my husband is to me. In such a grace-filled example of sacrifice and love, my husband has taken on the role of a Christ in our marriage. As I feel so heavy laden with my sorrow and stress, my husband takes that burden from me as Christ takes the church's. So as the enemy tries relentlessly to drive a wedge between the holy work God is doing in our marriage, my husband chooses to listen to my frustrations, to comfort me in my sorrow, and to carry my burdens so I don't have too.
For when I think I am carrying everything around our house and our life, in reality, he is shouldering it all.
Wives, wherever we are at tonight may we take a moment to simply thank God for our husbands. May we realize how blessed we truly are by them that they would take on such a role in our marriage and show us the purest form of love and grace.
Father God, As these days journey forward, you never fail to comfort us in our sorrows, to life us up in our joys, or to take our burdens from us. This life is far from the Glory we will one day experience, but you give us snippets through this beautiful thing you call marriage. Someday, we will truly know what it is to walk beside you, to be held by you, and to never more have the heaviness of a burden upon our shoulders. But until that day, you give us a grand example of how that Glory will play out. You have blessed us as wives with a husband who would walk through fire for us all so that we may know love. Thank you for such a man. Thank you for placing him in my life. In all of this--our joy & our sorrow, our busyness & our moments of peace, may we understand that this marriage is meant to show the world your love. Lord God, I lift up my husband tonight for as he is chasing his own passions and dreams and joys and sorrows, he also is shouldering my burdens. May you give him strength to carry this load and to lift the burden over to you. Bless my husband tonight Father with an overwhelming feeling of love. Fight for my heart God, banish the enemy, turn my soul to you, and help me to show steadfast love to my husband. For if there are moments in life when he is to carry my burdens, I so desperately want him to feel how deeply respected he is from me.
In your most precious Son's name,
"All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. God is our merciful Father and the source of all comfort. He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us." 2 Corinthians 1:3-4
Sometimes, being a woman is just plain dumb. Well, the emotional side of being a woman, anyways. I can't help but think that, on my very worst day, T might think the same thing. The emotions of women are dumb sometimes. When I think back to some of my worst days (ahem, the nightmarish months following the birth of our sweet boy) I praise God for showing T how to comfort me through the ways that he himself has been comforted.
Tonight, as I myself wrap up a stellar day of emotional highs and lows, let's pray for our men to have sensitive spirits to our ever-changing emotions. That they would have patience, and know when to speak and when to just listen. And above all of that, to know that this too shall pass. And may we have the sensitivity to show them comfort when it is needed and how it is needed.
Happy Sabbath, dear women. Enjoy some chocolate today in honor of yours truly.
Oh Father God,
Your patience is boundless. I can't wrap my mind around it for I have nothing in me that is even worthy of comparison. I am so grateful to you for always showing up to comfort both my husband and myself in our weakest of moments. The doubly beautiful thing about it is that it has allowed us to learn how to then comfort others. Your storehouse never runs dry, you are always there to show us more compassion, more comfort, more patience, more love... allowing us to work beyond ourselves and show those things to others. I pray specifically for that in our marriage today. Please give us both a sensitive heart towards the other. A willingness to put our needs aside for a moment, when the other really just needs a hug. Give each of us the ability to see that those moments where comfort is needed are of much greater value than any task or distraction calling our names. These working-life-out-together moments are what this marriage and this God-glorifying life are all about. Please don't let us forget that. It is when we are able to accept one another in our weakness and show the love that is needed that we give you such glory, which will in turn radiate to those in our lives who will witness our marriage... our relationship... the support that has been foundational because of you. And Lord, even if I'm being irrational in my momentary hormonal hurricane, give him the patience to wait the storm out alongside me, offering your words of kindness and truth that can sometimes stay locked in his heart. Grow and stretch our communication Lord, and open our eyes to see the fruit of it. Thank you for the beautiful, complicated and ever-changing love that we share. May it bring you glory, Lord Jesus.
In your mighty name,