"But what happens when we live God's way? He brings gifts into our lives, much the same way that fruit appears in an orchard--things like affection for others, exuberance about life, serenity. We develop a willingness to stick with things, a sense of compassion in the heart, and a conviction that a basic holiness permeates things and people. We find ourselves involved in loyal commitments, not needing to force our way in life, able to marshal and direct our energies wisely."
-Galatians 5:22-23, The Message
My husband is studying to be a worship minister, and in the mean time working part time as the worship minister for a church. I never saw myself as a minister's wife and being able to pastor those in the church and ministering to others. Since the day my husband has decided to obey God's call to ministry, I have been terrified. What if I don't measure up? What if I can't do this?
Really--I've been asking the wrong questions. I should be asking God to set a fire in my heart and soul to not only hear His call, but to boldly walk alongside my husband in his profession. Just because he is being called to be a minister doesn't necessarily mean it's my calling. Instead, my calling is to be his wife and walk alongside him.
I may never feel qualified to pastor someone by way of a church minister definition--but my husband does. When I became his wife the day we were married, I had no idea where God would lead us, and I was terrified. But I did know He would lead us. And even today--in whatever calling and capacity God asks--I don't know about you, but I am still terrified.
But God equips us for whatever path He lays in front of us and we choose. To combat the fear I believe we need passion. Something so deep in our soul that begs us to cry our for a God who loves us and guides us.
Cultivating that passion comes with prayer and in boldly telling God we want more of Him in our lives and our marriage. Over the years, I have learned that being a wife is more about my husband than it is about myself. This partnership works only if we selflessly offer Grace to our spouse and care more about their well-being and needs than our own. It's not easy-- giving up ourselves never is-- but it is so worth it.
Today wives, I encourage you to ask God to set a fire to your husband's soul--ask Christ to cultivate a passion for His love so that our husbands may walk through life with affection, exuberance, serenity, commitment, compassion, conviction , wisdom, and holiness. For when they do, they will be leading us along and passionately showing us how God is near.
Holy God, Today I come before you unsure of where you are taking me but boldly asking you to lead. As you have so perfectly placed me in my husband's life, use this journey of marriage to equip me to walk alongside him in the way he feels called. I praise you for your love and goodness, and I come before you today lifting up my husband. As he follows your guidance, set a passion and fire in his soul so that he will seek nothing and no one but You, Lord. I pray that as new days come--both good and bad--that he would desire more of you Lord. So much of you that he cannot contain nor control his passion for you allowing it to overflow into his life. Today, Holy One, fill him with the fruits of your spirit. May he show exuberance for life, compassion, and commitment in all that he does. Cultivate such a passion in him that it would overflow into our marriage and his calling so he may lead me with Your Spirit. I ask that these spiritual fruits manifest during this prayerful journey so that my husband may live out a full & well life that speaks honorably and passionately of You. In your most Holy name, Amen